This morning i found myself wide awake at 4:22 am with a mind racing. I understand that all emotions are pain. Thats where they lead. Thoughts arise and without mindfulness they manifest into suffering. without mindfulness.
My life is no greater than this moment. My potential to achieve is a double edged concept. Looking at potential, and achievement. lately i have been looking for value, through the approval of people who know me. As well as myself. I am working on removing entitlement and attachment. Recognizing through mindfulness the choice i have to suffer, or to not suffer. Can my value in life be value neutral? I feel done with my self imposed embarrassment to my sense of value. I would like to let that one go now. I dont want a goal. I just want to live.
People here live every day. Live it. I had no idea how much of my time ive been spending in the moment just beyond the task at hand. Hurry up and get this done so i can go do that...Here we go to the market everyday to get the food that we are going to eat, every day. Here there is a little girl who dances on the sidewalk and begs for money. She is not having a tantrum about her cartoons being turned off. She is not consumed with what she is going to make of her life. This is her life. and there is beauty in that not sadness.
Nothing belongs to me but my experience in life. and even that is kind of a question mark at this point.
philosophy is a total mind fuck.
My life is no greater than this moment. My potential to achieve is a double edged concept. Looking at potential, and achievement. lately i have been looking for value, through the approval of people who know me. As well as myself. I am working on removing entitlement and attachment. Recognizing through mindfulness the choice i have to suffer, or to not suffer. Can my value in life be value neutral? I feel done with my self imposed embarrassment to my sense of value. I would like to let that one go now. I dont want a goal. I just want to live.
People here live every day. Live it. I had no idea how much of my time ive been spending in the moment just beyond the task at hand. Hurry up and get this done so i can go do that...Here we go to the market everyday to get the food that we are going to eat, every day. Here there is a little girl who dances on the sidewalk and begs for money. She is not having a tantrum about her cartoons being turned off. She is not consumed with what she is going to make of her life. This is her life. and there is beauty in that not sadness.
Nothing belongs to me but my experience in life. and even that is kind of a question mark at this point.
philosophy is a total mind fuck.
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