Today was a pretty darn good day. We went to Juna Bazaar which I was really looking forward to going and being able to poke around without the womens. That's what mr shak called the group. The womens.
Deborah and I spent a couple of hours shopping and haggling for brass and things. I found such treasures! I am going back for sure. I could spend hours there. I'm not joking. It's a gritty flea market in the slums. Both times I've gone I havnt taken many photos because there is just too much going on. Next time I go I will try to get some of it captured. Afterward we went to lunch and then home. I lounged on the terrace in the sun and read some of my book. I've been reading books on meditation, Buddhism, awareness, breath... Of course Deborah has a gigantic library of this stuff. I am getting a lot and metabolizing it as well.
Last night I had a dream that I was running away from whatever was chasing me and to escape I turned myself into a white cat and I climbed up a tree. No one could see me or knew I was there. Then I saw my friends pass by me under the tree so I came down and was myself again but we were still being chased. When we got caught, it was four boys and they cornered us next to a pile of red apples which we then threw at them as hard as we could. I looked up what the cat and apples mean and it was fascinating. The cat is an illusion that you believe but can't see that it's not real. and the apples are acknowledging that something is wrong and you want to make it right. Deborah and I talked about the dream. To me it's pretty clearly that the illusion i have is that I can choose to be seen or not, found. I wasn't afraid being chased. And the apples. Throwing them at the people who had been chasing us. I take it to mean that I recognize the illusion I have and I don't want to have it any longer. I want to believe that people see my true nature without me having to effort it to them. I have been doing some research with my dreams while I'm here and I have been doing some exercises and techniques to develop my lucid dreaming ability. Going to bed is exciting again.
I was sitting up on the terrace the other day and I had a little epiphany about this year being the ten year anniversary of when I woke up and started really coming into awareness and consciousness. That's what it feels like here, I am so purely joyful and happy here and so clear in my understanding. It's like waking up on a deeper level. It's so satisfying and revealing. Feels like using a fine brush to uncover the ancient carvings after all the top soil has been shoveled away.
Deborah and I spent a couple of hours shopping and haggling for brass and things. I found such treasures! I am going back for sure. I could spend hours there. I'm not joking. It's a gritty flea market in the slums. Both times I've gone I havnt taken many photos because there is just too much going on. Next time I go I will try to get some of it captured. Afterward we went to lunch and then home. I lounged on the terrace in the sun and read some of my book. I've been reading books on meditation, Buddhism, awareness, breath... Of course Deborah has a gigantic library of this stuff. I am getting a lot and metabolizing it as well.
Last night I had a dream that I was running away from whatever was chasing me and to escape I turned myself into a white cat and I climbed up a tree. No one could see me or knew I was there. Then I saw my friends pass by me under the tree so I came down and was myself again but we were still being chased. When we got caught, it was four boys and they cornered us next to a pile of red apples which we then threw at them as hard as we could. I looked up what the cat and apples mean and it was fascinating. The cat is an illusion that you believe but can't see that it's not real. and the apples are acknowledging that something is wrong and you want to make it right. Deborah and I talked about the dream. To me it's pretty clearly that the illusion i have is that I can choose to be seen or not, found. I wasn't afraid being chased. And the apples. Throwing them at the people who had been chasing us. I take it to mean that I recognize the illusion I have and I don't want to have it any longer. I want to believe that people see my true nature without me having to effort it to them. I have been doing some research with my dreams while I'm here and I have been doing some exercises and techniques to develop my lucid dreaming ability. Going to bed is exciting again.
I was sitting up on the terrace the other day and I had a little epiphany about this year being the ten year anniversary of when I woke up and started really coming into awareness and consciousness. That's what it feels like here, I am so purely joyful and happy here and so clear in my understanding. It's like waking up on a deeper level. It's so satisfying and revealing. Feels like using a fine brush to uncover the ancient carvings after all the top soil has been shoveled away.
Interesting, dreams are a big fascination for me. It's kind of funny Jeremy & I always discuss our dreams when we have a really meaningful one and now Levi has started it. He will sit up in bed and say "Know what I dreamed?" and share with us.
ReplyDeleteThe Bazaar sounds neat and yes photos/video would be awesome! It's neat to see what you have captured so far in photos and video and I like that it's real - not focusing on the scenery only or the things everyone goes to see. Loving it.
Love you.
Sounds like this trip was exactly what you needed.