My collection of experiences is growing. With each one i am shifting and changing a little here, a little there. Sometimes hugely, sometimes in a pin prick.
I walked down to Dr Passang with Kunchok this morning for his acupuncture appointment and the next thing i know i am having my own treatment. What an interesting and eye opening experience that was. He brought me into his office. He has joyful, kind energy. He had me hold out my wrists and he put both hands on my pulse and he bent his head and he nailed it. All from my pulse and using his witchy Dr magic. He told me that i have a lot of emotions, and a lot of anger. That my breathing is shallow because i hold it to tightly. He told me that he would do a treatment for balance. He brought me into the treatment room and had me lie down. then he said " see" and he pressed two fingers into my abdomen and it hurt, it felt like he hit a brick in there. He moved his hand up and pressed somewhere in my shoulder and i had the same sensation. He didnt prod around, he knew exactly where to press. It was amazing. Then he put the needles in, one between each big toe, three in a horizontal line across my abdomen, one next to each thumb, one on my third eye and one on the top of my head in my crown chakra. Then he told me to relax and try not to move around and he left me in there for half an hour.
I hope i can successfully describe what it felt like to lie there. To think about where im keeping my anger, what story it belongs to and how to let it move along. Do i need to name it first? I was relaxed and completely letting my breathing be. I could feel the places where the needles were, more sensation was in the right side of my body then the left. I could feel the energy shifting and moving and flowing and i could feel it in twitches and pops and crunchy sensations where it was breaking things up. It was amazing! really really fucking amazing. I could literally feel each place take its turn, sometimes the sensation would jump from my right foot to my crown, sometimes it was in places that didnt have a needle, further up by my knee and underneath my chin. In a few places with the needles there was an intense cold burning sensation. At one point my breathing became very shallow and my throat felt so restricted, i kept my eyes closed and i kept any action out of the process. My breathing smoothed out within a few minutes and then it became very deep and even. I promise you ive never felt a breath like that before. I was breathing into space i never have yet. It was really something. I stayed with my eyes closed, i stayed still and relaxed with awareness and non action. I just felt my body, felt the sensations and allowed it all to be.
Dr Passang came into the room and he twanged all my needles and sent sparks running through my body and then he took each needle out quickly. He told me to stop eating wheat, that i have an intolerance and its adding to my energy block.
I am going back on friday for another treatment. Dr. Passang said " you come again in a few days, we will do three treatments and then we will see". i feel grateful for this opportunity. I dont think of myself as being an angry person and i know im not. I know there is a place i can get to sometimes where i am surprised by the intensity of my anger. But its not easy to get to. So having repressed anger, or holding on to anger. If this magic witchy Dr can touch my wrists and read me like that, i believe it without a doubt and i am grateful for its illumination. Eastern medicine is the shit.
Now i am going up on the terrace to get some sunshine and enjoy this gorgeous afternoon.
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